August

I love August it is one of my favourite months. My boss is off work :-) and the work load goes down through the floor because everyone is off! There is no morning rat race, the days are still long and light and because I have lots of time off I get loads of play and sex.

Throw in the fact it is warm enough to wear little or nothing all the time and it really is an ace month. Love August! 

Hot and sex!

It is so warm here today. It isn't really hot heat like over in parts of the States but it is very muggy close sticky humid heat... I hate humidity and being all sticky and sweaty it just really annoys me. On the other hand it is nice of course being able to be naked a lot.

I been thinking about how heat works with my sex drive. Personally I don't know why but it makes me more liberal with clothes (I have been naked all day) but makes me feel like sex much less. Master on the other hand is more horny and frisky... but tonight it should be nice and cool so I think it will be a case of have sex but with minimal play! A lead and a flogger should be sufficient! xxx

Love is...

I remember a film where someone said love is what is left once all the excitement of romance is worn off!

I think this is very very true. Anyone can be loved up after two months of dating. Dating long term is trickier!

I got to work today and got a surprise note from Daddy saying how much he is going to miss me today and I know he genuinely misses my company! Even after 6 years we hate being apart even for a few hours! I love the little things he does for me. He has given me 3 amazing surprise gifts this week each make me feel so spoilt and important.  

Few of my friends have stable long term relationships, most of those that do have very stale ones... I always get asked what makes us work and keeps us so loved up despite having been together for ages and ages.

If truth be told it is hard to put my finger on it. I think not having kids is a big help. My body is still in exactly the same state it was when I was 16, if anything I would say things are better, I am slimmer and in better shape. I am very very lucky. This has helped with my confidence. Daddy also keeps his body in excellent shape too!

Not having had children has helped too. I adore kids but I don't want them and never will. They are very inconvenient in my view and they don't suit my lifestyle. I would hate to have to look after kids! They are so much trouble. I see my sister in law, she has stretch marks like you wouldn't believe, baby weight she can't lose, she is always busy all the time and they have little or no time for intimacy. Personally I don't know how people raise kids. They must either be superhumans or take some sort of drugs to keep them sane and awake! I still need to mother things but I mother my cats and animals.

Financial stability and living within our means has helped too. We always have enough money and we live a nice, but sensible existence.

Plus, we committed so early, we moved in after two weeks, we are totally tied to each other, we are more or less the same person. Our fates are linked and we spend sooooo much time together. We do everything together! I think the fact we are always together is what makes us so successful!

But the main thing is why we got together. I loved him from the start because he was amazing in bed, kind to me, he was very handsome, a great person to be around and I liked his company!

My friends seem to be obsessed with money, looks, careers and prospects when they choose a partner and when they have they don't really commit... and think that is why my relationship is such a happy one... and I thank my lucky stars I have the best owner in the whole wide world!!! xx

time off!

I love having time off. One of the great things about having a job besides the pay of course is the time off. When you have a job you make more of time you have off. From experience when I wasn't working or I had a lot of time on my hands I find myself wasting a lot of it.

But I have had a fair bit of time off lately and have made the most of it as a result!

Firstly, I have been doing really well on my diet I have lost another 2 pounds this week. I am hoping to get to a BMI of 18 or there abouts and keep it there. I have found a great way to reduce my calorie intake healthily and without starving myself. I am a very good dieter! My waist is tiny and my arms are skinny but I would like my arms to be slightly skinnier.

Secondly, I have been working on my hair. My hair often looks overdone which I don't like. I want it to look wavy and big but natural. I tried something new every day this week and came up with a new approach which gets big hair with minimum damage and work required... score! Daddy loves big hair!

Thirdly, I have been doing lots of nice things, we have had playtime every day during my time off, twice on several days so we have lots of closeness time... then yesterday we went to a show... I love country shows. Daddy bought me a gorgeous wood carving of a cat and some of my fav sweets.

We then went into a tent full of food! One man was selling Chilli Jam... he is called the Chilli Jam Man. It tasted amazing and I really really enjoyed it. I bought some. Daddy being daddy had some extra hot chilli jam called the Podfather. I already had a headache from eating too much chiilli and I am a big time chilli enthusiast! I love to eat chillis as a snack! Anyway we got some of those...

But then we went into a tent full of animals and I saw the most gorgeous two guinea pigs in the whole world and they were for sale. Daddy knows how much I missed my old guinea pig Mr Carrots and so he agreed to buy them for me... I was uber happy about it. They are so delightful and cute. I have called them Winston and Nina. They are long haired silky guinea pigs!!!!

Back to work tomorrow but the weekend is on Saturday! xx

Rain. oreo lunches and diets

I am a very happy bunny or should that be kitty? It has been raining almost nonstop for several days here in England but M is very happy, I satisfied all his needs last night and today I had oreos for lunch. Nom nom nom...

The diet is going ace. I am dreaming of getting below 121 lbs... but it is hard work! Currently my weight has flatlined so I need extra hard work to help me along... why is it the less you weigh the harder the work gets... people seem to think people stay thin because they are just lucky... in reality I try really hard to lose weight and watch what I eat. M is proud of my efforts though and that is the main thing :-).

Right back to it. I can have one more Oreo as my afternoon snack... yummy!!!! xx

Purr

I am a very happy kitty as Master bought me some amazing perfume called Purr... it comes in its very own cat bottle with diamante eyes and a collar tag and gorgeous ears


Miaow!

It certainly cheered me up, I don't want to use it all though at once... so will have to be extra careful xx

miaow miaow

I have't written a blog in soooo long! All is good though! It was Master's birthday on Wednesday and we went shopping! We even managed to get some nice stuff for the house.

My mother is almost done with her radiotherapy :-)

Master wants to keep chickens now!

Every day when I get up its sunny and daylight

And this weekend I have my nephew's birthday party,I have bought  him the best book ever... The Gruffalo... only this version has sounds!!!!

Plus going to have a kitty play day and will get the chance to wear a gorgeous new dress Master wants me in! Hoozah!  x 

Confidence

Confidence is always something I have had issues with, confidence in myself and my abilities and it results in chronically low self esteem and self worth. I often feel very down in the dumps. Oddly, of late I have been feeling much better in myself and more confident and feeling greater self value.

There is one reason for this I think, and that is spending so much more time around Master and having his presence and reassurance. I guess it further reinforces why he is so important to me and why and how he makes me so much more confident and happy in myself...

I worry about things getting back to normal though with the bank holidays due to stop shortly *sigh*...

I think we should have more bank holidays or I should be able to go with Master to work in his pocket :-) xx

Easter!

I cannot quite believe it is Easter already. How time flies when you are enjoying yourself!

I have had a strange week really. On the downside my nan's funeral was on Monday which was horrific and my father is not feeling well which I am worried about. He didn't look well but they may be explained mainly by his poor diet.

On the upside though I feel very unusually happy in myself. My nan has apparently left me a lot more money than I thought she would. I will therefore be able to afford getting married without too many issues or hickups now which is great. More or less our immediate money worries are much more less significant.

In addition I feel better about my body, I am a skinny scrawny type and so having had my breasts done makes me feel much more whole as a person and gives me more curves. Women and curves mix well I think! It will enable me to dress more nicely for Master and he is very eager to try them out. He keeps touching them whilst they are still sore so a little bit less pain would be nice.

For Easter weekend then I hope we can have lots of playtime, lots of chocolate (I have 7 eggs nom nom) and hopefully a visit up the coast to one of my favourite places in the world! I love living out in a national park it is great and looks so pretty at the moment with the birds, lambs, flowers and blossom! xx

Getting back to normality

I have had two whole weeks off work last fortnight and I have absolutely loved it. However, I have also had breast enlargement, mainly because master wanted me to I should say.
On the positive side I feel great, the pain is still sore but it has made suc a major improvement to my figure and overall appearance I feel totally delighted. Master is also delighted and very pleased. I have the body I always wanted now.
But I am now having to get back to normality… rather than Master doing the lion's share of the housework and errands I will have to step up and take over greater responsibilities. In addition I also need to adjust mentally and back into the saddle sexwise too… a part of me is dreading it as I am so sensitive but another part can't wait my boobies look awesome!!! x

end of year review

Yesterday I had my end of year review at work and my boss said he was delighted with me and gave me a glowing report. He said I have been very good! So I am very happy! Boing! Think I deserve a reward

Tomorrow I will spend the day in a National Park sunning it up xx

Sunshine

Today something amazing happened. It was sunny and warm more or less all day. It was very balmy almost feels like Summer is here early. I actually so hot in my cardi and jeans that when I came home I spent the rest of the day in my underwear which Master seemed to approve of.

I love it when it is sunny as it makes you feel nice and happy. You wake up in the morning make Master his breakfast and the sun is already out. You go to work and it is nice and sunny and everything is happy and fun!

Today I completed loads of errands, I bought all the food we need for a month, I also managed to take the dog to the barbers and he looks amazingly handsome now... I also got my prescription and did some work too.

Now it is play time then bedtime story and its time for my catnap! xx

Long week

I have such a strange week ahead of me.

I am at work yesterday and today, then Wednesday I am going out running chores. Master wants us to take Zack to the doggy barbers to get his fur trimmed. Then we have to buy food and supplies for the next month (we do a big shop everytime).

Thursday I am seeing my nanna who is ill with breast cancer at the moment. We are going out for dinner but it is going to be a long day. Friday I am again at work before Saturday I have family over. I also still need to see my mother who is having an operation to see just how bad her breast cancer actually is. So many things happening at the moment.

Work time seems to take so much longer than time at home though!

On a plus side Master has a new cane... and I have a botty which could do with a caning! x =^o^=

Keeping up appearances

For me one of the most stressful of things is having other people in my home. It is kind of a sacred place, it is sacrosanct and I like to keep it that way. I don’t like other people in my area unless of course it is Master or my animals. I have always been like this since I was a little child. I didn’t like people being in my room and always used to keep the door closed and other people out.

This weekend I am taking the huge step of allowing my family well my siblings into my family home with their children too. It is only the 2^nd time in 3 years they have been in my house. I am a bit stressed about it. What will they think of my home, will the dogs and cats behave?

Hopefully I wont be showed up or embarrassed!

I love children big time, but I would not like to have ones of my own as our lifestyle just isn’t compatible with having children around under any circumstances.

So, as a result I have spent all this weekend making our home safe from children’s wandering hands. I have had to hide so much stuff. Some of our more colourful books, magazines, DVDs, canes, cuffs, rope, slut shoes, my numerous pairs of thigh boots and a hell of a lot of my clothes. I even found two vibrators in the lounge. It took my forever and I haven’t even started on the bedroom. Hopefully I can just keep them out of there altogether maybe???

Either way hopefully it will all go fine! At least my sister in law isn’t bringing her sister from the States! Last thing I need is a preachy know it all who likes the bible a bit too much… well the mormon equivalent! xx

what breed would I be

I love kitty play I adore it with a passion. My kitty persona, Cinnamon is a brown haired kitty (neko) girl who is very playful and mischievous.

But I have often thought what breed I would be!

I think Persians are adorable and their aloof nature would probably suit me, I am definately a pampered puss. Plus I do like a lot of grooming.

But I can be playful too and I have an adorable miaow... so would that make me a Siamese?

I don't like heights and high places like Tonkonese adore...

I do have long lustrous big hair though with lots of bounce and waves which would make me more of a maine coon or a cornish rex or similar...

My hair is dark chocolate brown (mmm chocolate) and my skin is very pale... so maybe after all I am a Norwegian Forest Cat... I do like Forests although I am not Norwegian...

So maybe I could be a new breed... I could be a long-haired English Chocolate Cat... I am English, like Chocolate and I have long fur! All I need now is a nice tom cat to breed with :-)

Oreos

Why are Oreos so great? Why are they better than everything apart from sex? I don't know and that is the mystery which makes them so special.

I think Oreos were made by magic in some far away magical land. Ever since I was little back when I was in Texas I used to love eating Oreos... I think it is the magic combination of a deeply cocoa rich biccy with white cream and they keep me so nice and slim too with their mystical powers! Master loves to feed me them when I have been good which is of course most of the time...

Perhaps I should write an Ode to Oreos... or maybe just eat a packet for my late lunch...

Tonight I hope we can have a nice play night in front of the fire, my ass is aching for a good spank.

happy news

Today I made an application for finance which should pay for my upcoming breast augmentation and I got it... woop woop! The rest of the funds will go into our wedding money pot for next year's wedding. I have still got a scarily large amount of stuff to do in the meanwhile though.

I have decided I will use the recovery time after the operation for wedding planning. There is so much for me to do in the months ahead.

Sad news though is that a cat a couple of doors down called Coco has died.

She was a gorgeous 15 year old torty cat with a very glamourous red collar. She always greeted me with a purr and loved being tickled under her chin. She was quite adverse to coming in to the house for a bit of fuss and a bit of tuna fish too for her dindins before going off hunting. I love animals but I can't cope with the whole losing them thing and I get too attached. I like cats very much.

To cheer me up I will put on my PVC kitty outfit for playtime later :-) always makes me feel good! Plus Master adores it too!

weekend :-)

Well its been a good and bad weekend. I spent most of the weekend carrying out chores tidying the house. It needed a good tidying up as I haven't been on top of the housework of late. I did some reorganisation of my wardrobe for the impending breast augmentation. Some of my clothes will in the not too distant future fit!

On a very negative note though my mother was diagnosed with breast cancer. I am totally gutted. She has already beaten leaukaemia and now she has another cancer to deal with. I certainly think she has had more than her fair share of illness to cope with if I am honest. I just hope she is going to be ok I suppose and that she will get better soon. 

A new fetish club has opened in Leeds, umming and arring about going. We not hugely into the kink scene really and Master certainly isn't so we'll see.

boobies!

So yesterday we went to see the boob doctor. For years Master has wanted me to have a much bigger cleavage and to be in his eyes the girl he always wanted to be with. I’m slim but lack the curves he feels would make me nicer J

So we met the surgeon yesterday for the second time. He was really really nice, he was friendly, very kind and very informative answering all my questions and reassuring me,.

I put on a bra with some weird chicken fillet type things to see how big the implants will be when they are implanted. They looked amazing. It was weird looking down and seeing a really big cleavage rather than the minor one I am used to. I can’t wait to put on my clothes post operatively!

My figure looked way more curvy and fuller just as Master wanted and requested.

I can’t wait now, well a part of me feels that way the other part of me is dreading the prospect intensely.

Being sore and having stitches in doesn’t appeal one bit… I have got to focus on the end product though and knowing that this is what master wants and will make him happier about me.

After seeing the booby doctor we went to see the in laws. Unlike when we are at my family’s house Master is totally himself around his family and he makes no secret of the nature of how we work. I talked to his mother about the whole wedding we have planned and she was very nice about it. So much happening at the moment. =^o^=

the parents

So the weekend has gone and all in all it went well. We discussed our wedding plans with my father and stepmother. Master really doesn't like them so I was kind of stuck in the middle. It is a nightmare if you owner doesn't like your parents. It can be a really difficult situation to be in and you feel stuck in the middle.

The main issue is that when I am at my parents house I am me free to do more or less as I like sat on the couch considered as equal to him and he just sort of sits very quietly desperate to leave as soon as he gets half a chance. It is sad as I wish he could be closer to my parents but I guess it isn't going to happen. He likes my mother though... that probably is in part to her having a cat...

I have a long week ahead. 4 long days at work and one day seeing a surgeon in Manchester. Master is very uncomfortable about the whole doctor touching my body thing but he has to put up with it if I am going to have a boob job. On the plus side though he has already picked out loads of simply gorgeous dresses and tops and lingerie he wants me to wear post surgery... I can't wait! Cookies for lunch! But it doesn't matter because I have lost a lot of weight lately =^o^=

Stress

I am a well stressed kitty cat today :-(.

work has suddenly kicked off, after a quiet week with hardly anything happening suddenly today everything has kicked off and gone insane. Just as I was looking forward to a relaxing weekend too!

Master is definately dreading tomorrow as am I to some extent as we go to see my father and stepmother. They don't really approve of Master at all for a variety of reasons so I kind of feel stuck in the middle a little bit! I want to be a good girl for Master and make him happy but I also want to see my family. Last time I just sat on the floor and Master stroked me most of the afternoon which was fine... hopefully there will be a repeat of that this next time.

On the plus side, last night we had a great time together having awesome anal sex! Was a late night though after we had finished playing but it was worth it! =^o^= 

breast implants

Well for years now Master has been wanting me to have breast implants... so all things being well I am having them done in the near future. When all is said and done my body is his and he is free to do with it as he sees fit but the prospect is still slightly terifying and I am worried about the whole thing!

Basically I have to do research and there are a million things going through my head. What if it goes wrong, what if they are too big and look out of proportion, what if I get an infection and a nasty scar etc...and yet somehow Master is just so sincerely calm and unworried. I wish I had his willpower to not worry about things like I do!

I think for him the idea of seeing his slave have the body he wants her to have and the prospect of me being able to give him a tit wank is what appeals! Men sometimes have such simple pleasures in life :-)

Master put me to bed early but when I woke up for work I found a tasty and yummy pasta lunchin the fridge he made me... I love him so much!!! =^o^= x

Master is upset

If there is one thing I find really hard at times is when Master is upset over something and really short and angry... I feel so helpless and just want him to be his usual self again and not unhappy.

Last week one of the cats decided she would take it upon herself to chew through the internet cable... Master replaced the cable only for her to do it again overnight last night when Master had some vital work to do online first thing... meaning not only did he have to replace it but he had to go out to the shops first thing :-(...

He is in a stinking mood and it isn't my fault but nonetheless it has left him in a stinking mood for the rest of the day. I try to be understanding and do my best to make him feel happier but sometimes it is a nightmare but I suppose that is all I can do!

I think the fact we are going to my father's at the weekend is weighing on his mind too. He doesn't like my dad and my dad doesn't like him either. They hate each other, the fact I call Master Daddy doesn't help too mind... all I can do is smile, make Master lots of drinks and hope when we leave my father's house I can make it up to him using my natural charms =^o^= 

Nice weekend

I love the weekend and having the opportunity to spend time with my Owner and not have to go to work. Its not that I don’t like work, well I don’t that much but I just don’t like being away from Daddy and us being apart.

This weekend we went across to Whitby. We had fish and chips together in a nice little restaurant and had a good chat about various things and how we are both feeling. We followed this with a nice walk and a trip to a few shops. I saw an adorable grey tabby stuffed cat which Daddy kindly bought me and became my latest bedroom addition. A great day and I am so grateful he gave some of his time to spend with me. Now I just feel sad because I have a working week before I next get to spend time with him and without his presence I feel very alone L

Rewards

I have been very good of late for Master. I have given him minimal problems and have been very well behaved and so as a result I am this weekend being rewarded for my goodness and obedience with a trip to Whitby my favourite place in the whole wide world.


We are going to go for a nice meal there fish and chips of course and then go for a walk across the river Esk and to the shops on the East Shore.


Hopefully we can buy some nice bits and Master has promised me that if I am good he will buy me some of my favourite sweets and maybe even another kitty doll if I am extra lucky.


I love the weekends as it means I get to spend lots of time with Daddy like last night which I spent curled up naked on his lap. Hopefully I can get lots of time serving him on my back and knees too :-)

Names

Me and Master have weird names for each other.

My legal name is Melissa but Master rarely calls me this at all. He loves to call me kitty, kitten or Bagpuss.

This is a result of me loving cats and being a total Hello Kitty addict!

Kitty play is my passion so it is an appropriate name.

But as a kitty I can’t be called just Kitty as Master has 3 other cats. So he calls me Cinnamon as I love it’s smell and taste and use a lot in my cooking.

There is nothing sweeter than me wearing one of my kitty ears, paws and with my kitty tail butt plug in and he calls me by my cat name… here cinnamon come on its dindins time and my little kitty bell jingles as I crawl over =^o^=

With Master I like to call him Master, but he thinks it is too formal. He instead likes to be called Daddy. He is totally a Daddy figure to me taking responsibility and looking after me. It always makes people give us odd looks though when I do it in public, but I think its sweet and I want people to know how much I adore him

Time for lunch!

=^o^=

Body improvement and maintenance rules

I have always believed keeping up appearances is vitally important. Not all of us can be sensationally beautiful but I believe one should make the most of what you have. As a slave to my Owner I always try to look my best for him.

Master sets me clear rules to aim for to be the perfect girl for him and to make him happy. I am very lucky he sets such goals and targets for me to achieve and if I achieve them he is happy and sometimes rewards me!

(i) Weight… he believes I should always keep my weight down to be trim and in nice shape… my weight is currently just under 9 stone. I am aiming for 8 stone 10 as my ideal. A number of family are very overweight so I try to be as skinny as possible.

(ii) Dress…  Daddy likes me to wear certain clothes to make my own style distinct. Pencil skirts, blouses, stockings and heels are pretty much my uniform.

(iii) Waisttraining… Master loves waist training. I wear corsets every day more or less. My 26” corsets are very comfy and snug bu my 22” and 24” create the most amazing curves…

(iv) Hair… Daddy loves me to have long natural brown hair. He adores it. I look better with shorter hair but Master gets what Master wants!

All in all I adore Daddy so much that I want to look my best…

But one thing he believes I need to do is have breast augmentation and that is my aim for this year. I want a couple of nice big boobs he can play with. My dream would be for him o enjoy a soapy tit wank from me *sigh*… I need to sit down for a minute =^o^=

It's all about me...

Well no it isn't but I thought I would give a wee introduction to myself.

I live in the rural heart of North Yorkshire. Think Heartbeat country and you are there. It's pretty and nice.

I live in a terrace with my 2 Yorkies (think little yapper dogs), my 3 gorgeous cats (Oreo a Maine Coon, Tama a Tonkinese and Chi a grey tabby) and my Master, who I call Daddy... long story.

But my life pretty much revolves around my extra curricular interests. We live in an old fashioned M/s situation. He is the man of the house and I am his obedient girl, collared and submissive to him. He likes it that way and so do I.

I am 28, 5 foot 7, tall enough to be slim but not so tall that I am *too* tall. I am slim and slender with long brown wavy hair. My body is unmarked as Master likes it but I wear around my neck my eternity collar with a little jingly cat bell. I adore kitty play with a passion.

I was raised in England and Corpus Christi, Texas and would describe myself as smart (doctorate educated) but a bit of a tamed whore really who likes to work hard in a good job before coming home to make house for her Owner, a nice toned domineering Arab man who treats me like a piece of meat or a Princess depending on his mood and my behaviour.

I guess I wanted to set up a blog to talk about things I sometimes find difficult, my friends and family don't really understand my lifestyle and to share what goes in our household.

Today I have been working a bit from home and tonight am going to serve him. I have my favourite corset on and am working naked in the study. I will shortly do my hair and put on something nice for this evening. I am thinking he would like me in a nice black basque and seams? Either way if it results in anal I am fine =^o^=

I started my own blog woohoo!

Will make my first proper post later... as its late and I want to leave...

On a positive note I not eaten much at all today as I endeavour to be in best possible shape for my appointment with the booby (an official title nonetheless) doctor next month. When I am standing there with my boobs out and he 'examines' them looking down I want the smokiest flattest tummy going! Plus the nurse he has scares me she stares at me like a rapist.

Either way at least Master will be there and that is just fine by me :-)